What I have been trying to figure out is what I truly think happens after this life is over. Not what I was taught in church or by my parents or by watching television or by reading books. What I am trying to find is what I, deep down in my core, think about it. Have you ever done that? It isn't easy, but sometimes it is necessary.
Unfortunately, the only ones who have the true answer to this are the people who have already died so they aren't much help in finding an answer. That is, unless you believe people can communicate with the dearly departed, which is a possibility, I suppose. But, I am not one of those people who can communicate with the dead, so here I am back at square one wondering and contemplating.
I have been reading what different cultures and religions think happens to a person after death, and the choices are wide and varied. If you are open to new possibilities, you can find just about any answer if you search long enough. Google and Bing offer a gazillion answers. Ultimately, though, you have to take the time and effort to dig deep inside to find your own truth and your own way.
I don't understand why people are always saying they would like to come back as a butterfly. Sure butterflies are beautiful and happy and whimsical, but they live for what, a day? If I am going to come back as something other than a human, I want to be something big, powerful, and just for kicks, scary. I think it would be pretty cool to be an owl or a tiger or a shark. I also think that my thoughts on this subject make it clear how low on the spiritual perfection totem pole I am currently. An untold number of lives would need to be lived in order for me to get to Shark Level, and because of this alone, I rule out reincarnation in my contemplating.
So I will continue the process, trying to sort through the beliefs and options until I find something that I can believe in and come to terms with. I will assume the lotus position and meditate on it, until my mind wanders and I start wondering if Sookie will stay Eric or go back to Bill, and if Alcide will finally make a move on her on the next True Blood.